New Year Eve's Eve

It has been a dramatic month.

December. WOW.

People are so funny.

Do you realise that people often treat others the way that they hate others to treat them?

When it's supposed to be the exact opposite?

2012 is drawing near.

Everyone wants a new beginning, a new year and starts afresh.

Staying positive for the new year and all,

But it doesn't mean that everyone has a happy new year when they hope for one.

Some people just don't get their "happily-ever-after" wish granted.

I guess this is when you should tell yourself,

"Welcome to reality?"

Apart from all these negativity, there's always a silver lining somewhere out there.

I don't like being around negative "ions".

Random, but yeah.

But staying positive doesn't mean that you're entirely an optimistic person.

It could be you're just trying to avoid what they call life.

Well, I don't know.

Time to put on the thinking cap.

Heading back to Singapore tomorrow, which means hello no-sleeping-time.

There's a lot of catching-up to do.

Not looking forward to any bit of it.

Holidays have definitely put me back into my comfort zone.

Best of luck for the new year!

And always remember that there's always a reason behind everything.

God will bring you through it if He brings you to it.

Blessed for all the laughters

1 week has passed.

Been eating a lot, practically enjoying my life here.

And I've moved too.

Loving the new room. :))

And the feeling of waking up to good mornings.

Distance.

It's something that bring you together, or just simply break you down.

All this is still very confusing.

Gotta break it down slowly one by one.

I have a feeling,

That this new year's eve is gonna be different.

New year resolution:

Add another pair of heels to my collection!

Seize the moment

It's funny how different you guys are.

Full.stop.

Impressed in a quiet way.

Something I never have the chance to get.

I do miss how we used to talk.

Nobody just wants to admit it.

Ego.

17 days?

You're actually counting.

"I'm just gonna go with the flow"

Can't wait to see you soon too.

You and your nonsense, really.

The past VS. the present.

Nobody knows how it's gonna end at last.

Nobody, for real.

December is great, and still going!

7 weeks later.

I'm back at home.

It feels great waking up in my new room this morning. :)

December, it has been an amazing month so far.

The best I could ever asked for.

This could be a great way to end the year.

Friends.

I couldn't have asked for better ones.

So blessed.

Imagine them travelling more than an hour just to send you to the airport.

And then it's an hour more train ride back.

My first time.

Friday night was just awesome shit.

My second time drinking at Singapore.

Dinner at Somerset, then it's off to Clarke Quay.

Loved it. And missing it. Heaps.

Wouldn't have thought that I would actually miss my friends when I'm actually back at home.

This is definitely the first.

Looking forward to days back at home,

But of course, I can't wait to get back to Singapore too!

Happy Holidays guys!

Let this last month of the year be a joyous one!

Train rides talk

Second day of December has been great.

Had dinner at City Hall with the ladies.

Been awhile since we last come out for a little relaxation.

And it's back to school tomorrow on a Saturday for more work!

1 more week to go, waiting for the rest to finish up their MST.

Their last paper on Friday.

And we're already having plans of where to go on Friday night!

Craving for awfully chocolate.

It's been a long day.

Gotta head back to bed and recharge on my sleep before tomorrow.

All these have been a blessing.

Friends. Talks.

Not thinking about bringing it to the next level.

Go with the flow?

A friend of mine finished his finals.

Hope you did great. :)

And to you guys, have a great weekend!

Although mine's gonna be filled with assignments and tests. But oh wells.

Thanking God for it. :))

The festive month!

It's been one hell of a hectic week.

Ended my second formal presentation in 6 weeks.

It. was. GAHH!

Was supposed to stay up all night to finish up the slides and the interview notes.

All drained out so I thought I would nap at 3.30am.

Set my alarm at 4.15am.

Woke up at 7.00am,

With work undone, presentation undone, rehearsals UNDONE, appendices undone,

And meeting friends in 2 hours.

Presentation in 3 hours.

Panicked. Been through it. Thank God. Phew.

No school today. SO glad I could finally sleep in.
Woke up to the morning breeze.
Made my day already.

And whuut? One more to go next week.

Whaddup with all the presentation in this term?

Nevertheless, November has been great to me.

Awesome in its unique way.

Met amazing friends, camp and all.

Who would have thought?

December now, and it's the last month of the year.

It'll be great.

Looking forward to a brand new year! :))

2 more assignments to go and it's HOHH-LEE-DEHHS!

What do I want?

Items in Confirm-going-to-die list is cutting down slowly.

3 more to go and it's time for some Kuching time!

Been so tired doing work, staying up at night to study.

Mentally drained and it's not the time to stop yet.

Procrastinating and am disappointed in myself.

It's time like this when I can't seem to find my motivation again.

I want to do this but my eyes seem to be stopping me.

My heart's not even in it.

All I want to do is just to sleep.

God, you need to wake me up from this dream.

There haven't been any peaceful nights.

I want some time alone, please?

All this are so complicated.

Familiarity?

Or something new? Something that I'm even unsure of.

No idea.

I have ABM presentation on Wednesday to worry about.

So this, I'm gonna put aside first.

But really, sometimes I DO need my own free time.

Don't get too comfortable and clingy.

Gotta find back that motivation!

I'm ready for a new year!

Last week was the longest yet most fun week ever.

LTC was over!

3 days 2 nights spent meaningfully.

Though only managed to get 4 hours of sleep for 3 days.

I'm so glad it's over and the people who spent it with me, I'm grateful and thankful. :))

So many to say, but I have no idea where to start.

These are the people who stood by me all this while.

Couldn't have done it without you guys. Loves always!

Day 1.

Night game was great!

Campers only got to sleep for an hour.

Sad for us, showered and it was time to wake them up.

Day 2.

Committee was taking turns to sleep in.

And Mervin actually slept for bloody 9 hours!?!

And did I mention? I took 15 minutes to wake him up for morning exercise.

Night walk. Company. Lightsticks! I like.

Day 3.

Early in the morning, we purposely found fault with the campers.

One hell good of combination! :))

We do make a great team!

Debriefing.

Letters. Special.

Thanks for always being there. :)

Loving time like this.

Feel so bonded and connected with the rest!

The adrenaline rush is extreme!

Hello guys!

I'm back in action.

Been VERY busy lately.

Well, for the past 4 weeks, to be exact.

And nope, this is not going to an end soon.

Done with conference presentation today.

Really have no idea what to expect for the outcome.

There have been lots of ups and downs this week.

Funny faces, funny emotions, the sad ones, and also the stressful ones.

Trust me when I say stressful ones.

It's 2.45am and I'm just done with LTC revised action plan.

Skipping TV class tomorrow for more sleeps.

I really need to stop doing that. Not very good. for. the. grades.

1 more week to go,

And I really think that all these are testing our limits and breakdowns.

But, no, I'm still strong to go!

Setting aside assignments due dates and upcoming tests,

We can definitely do this!


And when I thought I have done everything,
I clicked on my sticky notes, and realised,
There's still freaking PR writing due next Tuesday! AHHH!

People have to stop showing two-sided attitude.

It does everyone no good.

1 more week to go and counting! :)

This has been a blessing.

Communication is the power.

Twitter has been updating real fast tonight.


"We're all in this together."

Guess this really strikes me this time.

It means so much more when you understand the meaning behind it.

Everything isn't going well.

But let's not bring friendship into this.

We fight, we talk, we make up and then we fight again.

I guess communication really is the key.

Everything is only possible if we see through each other's flaws.

Give and take.

Compromising.

This isn't an easy journey.

In 2 weeks time. And it already is killing us.

We're a team.

It doesn't matter how long we've been friends,

Now I realize,

What matters the most is that who's there for you when you really need them.

I really thank God for friends that hang in there with me.

And really being there for me.

Through thick and thin.

It's not time to break down yet.

I'm not giving in like this.

I have faith in you and I appreciate it when you say we'll deal with it together tomorrow.

Thanks for being here and I'll be there when you need me too.

Start realizing that. :)

Piglet and diglet have been a new nickname.

Procrastination is a beach.

Second day of THE WEEK.

1.11.2011.

Got back from my last day of interview.

We need to see more interesting people!

Friday is the judgement day.

Got the most heart-pounding news for the day.

Presentation is on next Thursday!

*Mayday*

Proposal for media conference and we're no where near the start!

Can you believe it?

First discussion tomorrow and Thursday, let it be inspiring.

TV class this Friday, and I'm dreading the homework.

And not to mention the 3-hour tutorial.

So not looking forward to it.

Been sleeping a lot in class. Not a very good sign.

"Interesting" friends are great at times like this.

Dinner and all. Making you laugh.

And we know, we're all in this together.

Thanks for being here. :)

Procrastinate no more.

Camera scripting, I'm gonna finish you.

Awesome Sunday!

Sunday has been awesome.

Watched In Time with the friends and had desserts and shopping spree with the boys.

Finally a day off.

Didn't know boys are such good shoppers!

Was an hour late for props-making because of lunch.

My apologies.

I guess everyone is just tired of everything and we need some time off.
But I'm glad we talked through it, and now, we know that,
No matter what, we'll have each other. 

Now that weekend is over, it's back to work again.

Next week will be the most intense week ever.

Juggling between assignment meetings and LTC meetings and interviews.

It's gonna be tough, but I'll pull through it.

Grant me strength.

And I know I can do it.

Sunday night, let it be peaceful.

Halloween is history!

Been racing with time for the past few weeks.

And time is definitely not on our side.

Halloween was over, reached home at 3am.

Ate dinner at 10-ish for the past few nights.

Morning, noon, school.

Night, LTC interview.

Weekends, LTC discussion.

Presentation in 2 weeks time.

Now I wonder when is my time for studies.

2 more weeks of interview to go, and 3 more weeks to the actual event.

Praying hard for strength and manpower.

WE NEED MANPOWER!

Game trial tomorrow at 2pm, wait it's today!

I'm exhausted and I apologize for not updating very often nowadays.

Halloween was a success!

Everything was worth the sacrifice.

I'm glad.

Start loving life like this. It's awesome!

And to you guys, have a great weekend ahead.

Moveeeeittt!

So I had a so-called movie marathon by myself.

Bought back Friends with benefits, fast 5, Easy A, Nasi Lemak 2.0 and Prom.

I know I know, losing up on movie updates.

Let me tell you, this is the BEST movie ever.

Rate it with No strings attached?

I'll still go for this.

The chemistry those two have? Indescribable. 

Justin Timberlake is so hot.

Didnt realize till his shirt was off. Woots!

Not that Ashton wasn't hot.

Slowpoke but I finally get to watch Fast 5.

Sorry Paul Walker,

But Vin Diesel, I'm in love!

Nasi Lemak 2.0 was okayyy.

Not really my kind of movie but I had a laugh out of it.

Well, and Prom is just being prom.

Every girl's dream, still.

Love it!

And Danielle Campbell is simply gorgeous!

Nice hair, nice smile.

Perfect!

Emma Stone.

Knew her from the House Bunny.

Does she always play such role in a movie?

Hmmm.

F.W.B

You don't know all I ever hope for is for time to go back. Back to the time when I wouldn't even know you. You don't know how bad I cry myself to sleep every night. Having my pillows and blanket soaked to wet. Puffy eyes stick around me, and I gotta excused myself with the lack of  sleep when asked about it, although I'm spending more than half of my day sleeping. Thought I can wake up tomorrow morning feeling better. But hey, no. You hunt me down right when I open my eyes. It sucks even when you gotta stop your tears dripping into your bloody food. And I hate how I can't eat my chocolate, cause that doesn't even work anymore. I hate the fact that I have so much spare time now, all I want to do is to escape from reality and just sleep. And hopefully, when I wake up, I forget everything. But no, things aren't that easy. I hate how my phone isn't blinking anymore, and for a second, I thought it was spoiled. You don't know how much I curse beneath my breathe because my life is such a mess now. Walls are never built since then, and I don't know why I'm letting myself into this again. You don't know how many times I feel like getting rid of your number off my contact list. So that I wouldn't bring myself to bother you, as much as I want to. I wanna go back to Singapore, where school is so busy that I have no time for this. But at the same time, I don't know how I'm gonna survive through that. Cause you were along with me for the past few semesters. I don't wanna tear, knowing that I have important stuff I have to do the next day. And I don't want to silently tear in the shower, while walking to the mrt, in the mrt. People are so fake that I feel so lonely in the midst of the crowd. Just hopefully I won't break down in the food court, while staring at my cellphone. All those hard work paid off, because I know I have your support, which gave me strength to continue what I'm doing. Where am I gonna find all the confident I need now when I feel my self-esteem is pulled down to the very bottom?


Where's that angel when I need it now?

Means every word to me.

Never thought it would hurt this much.

I gotta stop having these puffy eyes.

Let this be the last night.

Pre going-back-to-singapore syndrome

Things have been a lot quieter.

Not getting used to it, but it's the best I could do now.

Monday, and am leaving soon.

6-weeks holidays seem so short right now.

Taking up another module from a selected concentration next semester.

TV Studio Management, please be good to me, though you seem boring already.

Thinking of going back to school  makes me have goosebumps,

Not looking forward to it, instead I'm looking forward to the camp.

And Halloween Night.

Painted my new room turquoise, more to like paradise water.

Very satisfied with it.

Starting to throw away stuff that don't belong here.

Having problem with that though.

Fighting with the limitation of space constraints and the heart to keep gifts given by friends.

Been watching Korean drama, they are all seriously the same.

Still not a big fan.

Good friends have been a blessing during period like this.

I'm gonna stay strong.

Help me with it Lord.

What's with the sudden decision?

Today I don't feel like doing anything.

I don't want to mess this thing up, I don't want to push too far.

Mr Brainy's awake to conquer and take over the world! I'm not really into Smurfs, but for some reasons, which are still, surprisingly unknown to me, I'm particularly in love with this little fellow over there - Mr. Brainy aka Nerd.

Lately, I've been receiving comments that say that I look like a form 1 kid. Yes, I do get that ALL the time. Sometimes, it gets a little frustrating, but at times, it's a little useful. For example, when you get two smurfs out of ONE happy meal. :))

Kuching has been a little hazy, could you thicken up a little bit ozone layer? I persuaded and dragged myself out of bed at 8 this morning for breakfast with the family. A new succees! Been sleeping in till the late noon. Life's great just like that! And how did the rest of the day go? That's for me to know and for you to find out. Not.

Looking forward to seeing you! Which I'm not sure when either. Let's make it random and spontaneous again, why not?

Well, popping into the bed soon. Hopefully, I'll wake up with a heart of energy and excitement to do some encouragement for my friends. Till then, tatas.

*Saying hi to my truly loyal stalker, Mr Vincent Ong* *Waves* :DD Hope you're doing good there, come visit soon! 

TGIF!

September has come to an end, which means only 2 weeks left at Kuching. I woke up to a happy morning, knowing that weekend is drawing near. It's funny how the weather shapes my mood. Came back from Perth 2 days ago. Thank God for no jetlag.

I attended the most beautiful and touching wedding ever. Everything is so personalized, from the aisle to the  vows to the cushion covers to the centre piece to the dance. A bloody year was spent for planning it. And must I say, the dress is stunning! All was flawless.

Never did once did they stop holding each other's hands throughout the whole time. And for once, just that second, I had the urge of getting married. But hey, there're more to explore, aren't they? ;)

 They made all 13 different designs for table numbers. Cuteeee ey?

Daddy looking all happy when it comes to wine tasting. :)) One word to describe Perth, it was cold, yes very cold. Wasn't it supposed to be spring where all the flowers blossom? But hell no, the weather froze me to ice.

Weddings are amazing stuff, and I managed to meet up with a few fellow Kuching mates at Perth. It was good stuff. :) And this trip, it was all about FOOOD. I ate EVERY SINGLE TIME. 

Dim Sum was superb-ly yummy!

 Perth's version of Iglool - Snow Ice during the colddd weather?

 We had steamboat thousand of times. 

 Korean foooooooodddd!

  Mum's kimchi riceee.

 And I get to satisfy my craving for kim chi noodles! :))

 This is seriously the best Apple Strudel tasted!

 Had BABY chicken at Sandalford vineyard.

 Domino's Pizza! Hawaiian Chicken ftw!

Enough of the updates, I'm feeling very lazzyy nowww. Till then, bye! :)

And yes, one more thing. I hate, well maybe hate is a very strong word, dislike then, guys who act all emotional and stuff. Seriously, get over yourself. You're not getting attention like that.